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How About Now?

The seed that was planted last year in Addis has germinated and has started growing. It is growing healthy and robust. If I were the farmer or the Gardner I will be a satisfied person. That is my answer to my question.

Will this satisfy the curious reader? I don’t know. But again I shall reiterate my true belief by saying the congress of Awasa was an affirmation of my anticipation (and to be honest, my expectation).

Some of you, with good intention and pure heart, might have expected “higher” and “loftier” result or bluntly, “a perfect” result. I confess, in my life I know not what “perfect” result is.

Personally, I do not like “perfection” especially when it comes to things that deal with human beings, communities, societies or national affairs. Perfectionism is the cousin to absolutism and absolutism is the foundation of Tyranny. Perfection is the enemy of life. Need for perfection is subconscious wish for “death”. Perfection is a sure venue to death. Life is imperfect thus beautiful and mysterious so are human beings. Instead, I am an avid advocate of positive improvement, progress and growth.

If you are one of those (with ill intention and tselim Libi) who insist on “perfection” or “perfect” result (whatever it means) then by no means go and cross the bridge or the river to Adi HGDEF or Adi Nsu and witness firsthand the work of “perfection”:  Work-In-Regress. By that I mean go and witness ongoing and incessant anti-life activities.

What is anti-life? Is it death?  No, it is not “death” because “death” is natural, just like life. Actually “death” is the other side of “life”. Anti-life is unnatural, manmade (aptly demon made) social engineering (by other name) and who is a better example in the world right now than Eritrea?

The Congress of Awasa was a meeting of wounded people. Five hundred and ninety of them! They were elected by their peers, from all over the World, covering their expenses, came (or went) to Awasa to start the process of healing and to transform their healing to future Eritrea. That is what they call the power of collective consciousness.

Can you the reader describe such a feat? Meeting of wounded souls under one roof?

The “expected” result from such a scenario should have been similar to that of a lunatic asylum, with abundant chaos; mayhem; bloodletting; screaming; finger pointing and all other frightful human experiences.

Instead, those wounded souls received one another, not in the reception compartment of their brain, but with their heart. Because, at heart, they are the same and they found it easy to recognize what ails them and also helped them search for a cure.

I said wounded people!  Not of the physical (or flesh) type but the insidious one; the one that chews you alive; the one that possesses you; the one that mocks you day and night: the one that turns you into a day dreamer; the one that suffocates you with nightmarish dream: the subconscious; the psychological, the one which is hard to fathom.

I am a keen observer and sure enough I have witnessed improvements not by leaps and bounds but step by step: the way it should be. I have a psychological explanation that I learned and I want to share it with you. But first I will pose a question.

Do you the reader believe in “born loser” or “born winner”?

If you do or are inclined to do, please slap yourself, for there is no formula to “win”. It is all work, work and hard work; repetition and repetition until “winning” becomes an ordinary result or outcome. In psychology, there are four stages that one has to pass before winning becomes ordinary. These stages apply to individuals; communities; societies and nations.

The first stage is called “unconscious incompetence” meaning you have no clue whatsoever what you are facing or what needs to be done. It is your first experience. For example, if you come face to face with a hyena for the first time, you freeze. In historical terms we (all the wounded souls) were in this stage in 1980. We were emasculated with a psychological defeat. Frozen!

The next higher stage is called “conscious incompetence” meaning you have tried it once and found it hard at that time but unfortunately you also encountered the same task once more or numerous times. For example if you came face to face with a hyena for the second time, even though you will be scared, at least you will try to do something similar to what you did last time that caused the hyena to leave you alone.

The next higher stage is called “conscious competence” meaning you know what to do but you are not completely free of little doubts.

The last and the highest stage which is called the winning stage is called the “unconscious competence” meaning you know what to do without even thinking. How many times was Mohamed Ali knocked but he ended up winning the match?

So, a question to you dear reader: Where are we now?  Compare our situation in 1980 with now! Isn’t it easy to decipher? Now you know there is nothing called “born loser” or “born winner”.

Study in contrast is a good practice that should be utilized by all who crave knowledge and truth. Its secondary benefit is sobriety and calmness. Good, looks very good in the presence of evil, as light looks brighter in the presence of darkness. So if you compare the demonic and dark situation in Eritrea with the achievement registered at Awasa, for sure you will have a sober judgment and a positive outlook from the result.

The congress is also a Revival of our rich tradition which trumpeted the reinstallation of hope and faith. This particular congress can be baptized as the rebirth of our ancestral democratic traditions that was cherished by Jebha but was trampled and left for dead by the demon and his chifra. If the defeat of Jebha was the beginning of the end of this tradition, the Awasa congress in contrast shall be the reverse. For this alone the congress can be described as wholesome and successful.

What does HGDEF say about this congress? Nothing! But should I even ask this question?

There are entities (organizations, pseudo-organizations and individuals) who, as wounded as they are like us, sound not only comfortable with their sickness but rather than join us in finding cure, they are making pact with the cause of their sickness. Poor souls!

They remind me of the character, in Dante’s purgatory, who carries a  torch in his back at night that will not help him light his way but helps those who follow behind him. And those who lurk behind him are the cause of his sickness. They are not in the business of cure but exasperating it. They might sometimes promise alluring rewards but what is there alluring about hell? What can one hope from anti-hope entities? It is a complex psychological phenomenon that will be beyond the scope of this article.

Can tolerance be a crime? Yes indeed, if it tolerates evil. And carrying torch on your back to light the way for the evil masters, is a crime.

There are also few chatter boxes. What these types of individuals do not understand is that there is a limitation to what you can and can’t say. Most of them are afflicted with never ending Hillkh, even though the cure is to grow out of such infantile habit. Instead of active listening they talk and talk. Their talk is empty because it is not supported by listening. The worst among them are the reductionists. These individuals suffer from monochromatic vision. Holism is foreign to them. They reduce human beings who are created by God into mere names. But I have an irrefutable answer to them:

Without September, 1961 there could have been NO May 1991

Thomas Mann, in his masterpiece novel Doktor Faustus said “…it is a fact that chewing of a dry rusk fills the ears of the chewer with a deafening crunch, shutting him away from the outer world.”

What an apt saying from a wise man.

I want to take this opportunity to say thank you to all the participants who made our congress enviably fruitful.

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  • guest

    I will say thumbs up Mr. Aklilu, that us a wonderful article, your way of writing is very clear to any body , even the like me with poor English. Your style takes the reader from one point to another without disruption it is like a movie that stick in your memory for long. Most of all it carries its message without losing the gist.
    It is af if you know your readers and your purpose just to send the message with entertaining the reader.

  • sara

    It is cheap…easy…. simple… to write frequently from a comfort zone..and go out some times to so-called conferences (esterha/rehlat) and all payed by shoddy entities…. it is tough… bloody… difficult.. to be on your turf and alone,to fight for your dignity….

    • Kokhob Selam

      What do you think if you advice PFDJ to go to Awasa /estraha/ and make that type of wonderful congress? The people who make the impossible (congress) are living our heroes most of whom didn’t see their beloved country for long time because of the dictator. Those are people who didn’t dance when supporters were enjoying. These are the people facing the crocodile, who and not for their personal benefits. These are the people whose land is taken by PFDJ mafia group. But it seems supporters are jealous because they gather in Awasa. Again I am begging all PFDJ supporters to visit Awasa and if they will witness Awasa the only small city has developed more than the entire Eritrea. The secret is simple and easy they have a government that serves the people. That has rule of law. SO I think supporters has to go to Awasa and start to think positive in that fresh air which is not contaminated with PFDJ’s politics.

  • Kokhob Selam

    when ever I read this article I come up with new fresh Ideas. I read it 16 times.I can’t find words to express my feelings.Smerrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

  • I'm glad the national coffrence was sccesefull and the uotcome of our political leaders , was united against all the odd. I hope we move forward to award national unity. down with the dectator down with supporter of the dictator.{long life eritrean people}.

  • wed. garza

    It’s not easy to change those who used to carry a torch on their backs for the last 40 years , but thanks your words may help to shift the torche’s position to frontal and start mining the sealed resources for the better so that they can see the future and enjoy/ or endure the present.

  • Wedi Adem

    Hawna Aklilu
    THANK YOU for this beautifull article. After all these years of suffering of our people from those selfish, cruel and not God fearing individuals in Hgdf mendef , it is immoral and cowardy to sit back and watch someone to disrespect our integrity. We have national obligation to answer the call of our people’s pain to engage and support this movement for political change. We need to energize ourself and join the fight with honest, good will and progressive mentality.

  • awatestaff

    It is pruning day…

    Once in a while, it is pruning day…

    That’s when we take all the PFDJ Two Percenters who want to clutter our website with their tired junk and retarded vocabulary (“agame!” “weyane!” “minority” “Jihad!”) out to the recycle bin.

    In their demented mind, they think the crap they write is original and people will greatly benefit from their junk. We fill up the trash bin (because we are too busy) and then, when it begins to stink and attract flies, out it goes to the recycle bin. Meanwhile, they regroup, change their pen name (while using the same ip address) and come back huffing and puffing regurgitating the same words they were fed by Nsu in his rambling “interviews”…

    And the cycle is repeated:-)

    In other words, readers, we are not going to allow your house to be the playhouse for every expression of dementia.

  • observer

    Now is time to stop talking about the “poor souls”
    Now is time to focus in the real issue and librate your land
    Now is time to unite and fight
    Again now is time to say forget you “poor souls” !! you mean nothing to me i will not waste my time and my readership time talking about you instead i will talk about solutions to our problems.

  • awatestaff

    We at have great writers that we admire greatly and, dear God, it is hard to have Aklilu Zere write for your website and not say “We done good!” This article, “How About Now”, which is a sober rebuttal to all the refuseniks, spoilers, skeptics, cynics, and bystanders is an instant classic. The title is a rejoinder to his classic (because everything Aklilu writes is a classic) “How About Then”, which explained the origin of how Eritreans began calling Isaias “Nsu.” The Two Percenters have embraced “Nehna Nsu” without any sense of irony, although Aklilu’s original point was that Isaias has become such a feared demi-god even to his own fans, they dare not mention his name. You can read that piece here: Beyond that, if you want to understand the genesis of Isaias, his definitive transformation from a promising revolutionary to a despot, Aklilu Zere has the precise date (September 29, 1976) and the place (Fshei Mrara) when it happened and who was there witnessing it and began the long process of “Anchiwa and mogogo” priority that has plagued Eritrea for almost 40 years. A first hand testimony of a historian. You can read that illuminating piece of history, entitled “The Birth Of Despotism” here: Or, you can continue to be blissfully ignorant. As they say, you can lead a horse….

    • Kokhob Selam

      No, I am not wondering only about your writers stand but the knowledge and style is making me alive.

      Awate, remember this is big responsibility….. you have gained respect and you have gone higher you will have to prepare for more job. The people are with you. I know you can.

      • observer

        Indeed ATO AKLILU ZERE’s writting is all “A first hand testimony of a historian”

        thank you sir, you and your fellow writers here at awate are teaching alot

  • kozami

    It is finally safe to assume that this so called conference had been a total flop. Every commentary about it is more about the location it was held in, the local traditions and food as well as sharba! No one has anything to say about ‘it’ or for ‘it’…alas the malformed wild beast has died, drenched in its own vomit. All in all, it has been an interesting Nov – Dec. The sanction has been made mai sheloq (watered down), this deformed conference has died, Kidan (qomishti) is in crisis. Merry x mass everyone.

    • Selam :- kozami, before I say something to you I want to express my appreciation to all the article authors of our beloved medium Their work is awesome and informative. Now back to you kozami, i wouldn’t wonder if a PFDJ freeloader like you comes with such a lie because lying has always been the nature of your stupid kozami dictator. Before our congress started in Awasa, the likes of you were talking about a failed congress. But when our congress was proceeding, your PFDJ rag tag website was propagating about disunity and disagreements. Now that our congress reached satisfaction and unity, you come with “watered down” or “qomishti”. One can see that 20 years under the despotic rule of Isayas Afewerki didn’t advance you and instead of thinking about it you are even singing ” N’hnan nsu,Nsu n’hnan “. What retarded creatures. PFDJ shame on you.


      • Wedi Adem

        Our main problem is not retarded people like you but this dictatorship system in our country. If you
        want to convey IA and his mafia group for all attrocious actions toward your own people, that is your
        own decision. But tomorrow you are a person of interest of consciosness to all these crimes which take place where our history will put you in account.

  • meretse

    Sometimes I am puzzled when I came to read a posted article. My problem is not with writers, but with those so called readers and who waste no time to post their commnets. What is wrong with reading a posted article twice if not trice or as the intelectuals saying “digest it”. For me and I hope for many other readers Aklilu’s article is a free wisdom “lubona”. Aklilu, your article is good for anyone to read.

  • “I will give it two months before you people eat each other out, watch.”

    wihsing you long life,but I think this will be the other way round after two months. you will see this united democratic force challanging your boss and his supporters. And who is convincing you that Ethiopian government is our enemy? poor, tell him a lot of Eritreans are
    getting hlep from Ethiopain.

    hey, still you have enough time to be part of the solution and join us. hurry up.

  • What about now? after going through all up and down isn't time to be open minded? it is time to see and fix every one including all who were PFDJ supporters a place in this wide common ground."what about now?" is a question for all of us.

  • Halai Hager

    Brother Aklilu, the time of dignity and peacefull living with eachother is comming closer. The time of fear and intimidation is gone. Izi gizie’zi ertrawi zikhor’alu hgdefawian dma zihafrulu ewan ina betsihna zelena’mo ajokhum ajona nhgdef iniguhfela me’alti inaqerebet iya tikheid zela. Selamn qsanetn nwtsu’ hzbi ertra hifretn wrdetn nhgdef’n agelgeltomn.

  • Brother Aklilu, the time of dignity and peacefull living with eachother is comming closer. The time of fear and intimidation is gone. Izi gizie'zi ertrawi zikhor'alu hgdefawian dma zihafrulu ewan ina betsihna zelena'mo ajokhum ajona nhgdef iniguhfela me'alti inaqerebet iya tikheid zela. Selamn qsanetn nwtsu' hzbi ertra hifretn wrdetn nhgdef'n agelgeltomn.

  • Kokhob Selam

    Thank you for sharing this great kowledge. I think we should attach and send this wonderful massage to our freinds (who don’t know this site) to reach such artiles. I realy think there are minds that are for development and peace. Awate has passed all stages and it has becoming the site of wisdom.

    • Abdulhafiz said

      “How about now?” no it is too much I can’t find words to express. what timely and perfect article?

      I think the opposition all should think of using this site as the real Eritrean mind is gathered here.
      I always admire Awate but now is very much advanced and the real reflection of our society is here. I fully agree with my freind Kokob Selam.

  • Kemal ali

    Thank you Mr.Aklilu
    what a marvelouse piece.